I know now that nothing can keep a woman from becoming a mother.
I am pregnant at 44 and due in November!
I started 6 years ago by wishing to become a mother and I discovered that it wasn’t about the baby it was first about myself.
In these years I changed my life completely. I fell in love and ended my marriage, living with guilt from the men to whom I shared 20 years of deep love, in fear for his life, living an imaginable love story with my lover to whom I remarried and I am pregnant today.
I quit my job which it was never my passion. I started a new business with my husband. I tried to be a mother for his child abandoned by his own mother.
I moved for four times with my place… I started to paint again…
I felt like I died and I reborn again.
After one miscarriage and one devastating failed IVF, the tests showed that I had minimum chances. After the first hormonal treatment I find out that under that pressure my body had zero results.
I found about Andrea when I decided to stop IVF and to find a way to conceive my baby not from pain, fear, and struggle but according to my inner feeling that bringing a baby into this world should be only out of love and joy.
Our first session it was one of the most incredible happenings in my life. I moved from believing into knowing that my baby will come.
We worked together and I faced, understand and outrun with her help all my deepest fears and all the mental blocks that were creating the resistance in my body.
I faced my ego, my jealous God, with all its mental patterns, beliefs and flawed premises.
I learned to trust my inner guidance, to listen to my body, to know what I don’t want in order to discover what I really want.
I learned to love, accept, and forgive myself and all my decisions, to appreciate my life and to feel good without a specific outcome.
The new wishes are nothing but an endless sequence therefore we cannot wait to be happy only when they are fulfilled.
The time in between new wishes is the real life.
The real adventure is the space in time till we can touch the manifest wish.
I felt sometimes that past and future are meaningless. I felt that my baby is already here borne from my wish in a parallel Universe, waiting for me to align the two worlds to open the invisible door and allow her to come in.
I woke up one night before knowing that I was pregnant and I wrote the words that my mind was whispering:
„I am pregnant now.
And now is the past as it is the future.
My dear Andrea,
Thank you for helping me to get in touch with my deepest emotions, to be able to see beyond the palpable reality, to surpass the barriers of my mind...for being such a spiritual guide.
When we talked for the first time I felt that my baby sent you to me.
Being able to feel my baby’s presence before conception is the gift from you that helped me to appreciate life and to perceive myself and others as miracle creators.
I don’t know words to describe the gratitude, the appreciation and all that I feel for you…
I don’t know words but I know what I feel. I love you.
I thank you.